08/25/04 Comfort Zone

One day things are crystal clear to me, the next day I'm in a fog. Today is one of those days when the fog just doesn't seem to want to lift. I'm clueless as to how to proceed. I look at the assignment schedule on the 638b webpage and panic. There's no way that I can be ready to complete those assignments given my current circumstances. Everyday on the job so far is spent in In-Service activities that leaves practically no time left to interact with others, develop an understanding of the practice, etc. I won't even begin my actual work until October 1st as the next two/three weeks will be spent testing students. How can I frame research questions without experience the actual field that I'll be working in? My biggest frustration is that I'm never entirely sure that I have all the assignments completed! I mean, how many webpages must I consult to for my assignments?

I wonder if I've made a mistake. Is this the program for me? Is this the right time for me to be involved in this program? Should I have taken a new job given that I was in a program that relies heavily on the job for action research? Will I get out of it all that I want based on the time constraints that I have?

How crazy am I?